2 roads

i have two roads to be selected

one is to be employee, successful and capable employee

another 1 is strive to find a road to be employer

who i want to be.

just now, i can imagine if i take the second 1.
The motive behind of that choice is creating working chances and satisfaction to those i loved.

Brother is struggling to survive but i'm lazy to release him in efficient way.
Sorry and just realized that

while maintaining current job,
i will create a simple program for himn (2 months, at most by march can let saik choong see the draft and change and test on april)

at the same time, brother should come out an implementation process

1) end of december, come out the design(data structure and UI)
2) jan, feb and march(1/2) codes + test
3) middle of march show to brother
4) detect user error while using it/testing; enhance code from time to time
5) 3 months trials
6) find new secretary
7) generate reports + each day activity ( send through gmail documents)

as a way to release him while we are able to manage the business efficiently

while the business grows for certain extension or almost reach bottleneck
not while, should be right after everything is stable
we make it 1.5 years, we should look for other pipes by visiting other countries factory,bring more business ideas back and create the market

we will manage the business through internet, keep tracking the records in order no faulty.

Halo

Hi to myself, it has been a long time not writing blog or should be said as not chatting to myself...haha...am i crazy?yes or no also never mind, but i know i need do so and enjoy do so as well.

what the hell this week..i was lazy until skip working, just staying at room and watched dramas...so wasting time...but i think it has been a long time that i didn't spend time to myself...my own self....just now i even ate the cakes myself...suddenly i realized that shouldn't eat the cake alone. I was eating sesame cake from RT pastry. First time was trying with Shu Hui...hmmm...i still feel that time sharing with shu hui is more nicer than eat alone...maybe because the cake is very greasy if eating alone...haha..my theory...next time eat with others lor...don't 独吃难肥..woooooo..hahaha..back to my lazy statement, just now, planned to go office to finish something that i suppose finish by yesterday, finally...laziness playing my head...so still cook soup...I'M SO LAZY...

i know why i need my own time...this is due to i was no more private time since im falling in love with my bb..weekdays working, slightly rest and sleep for weekdays night; then weekends hugging my bb to fill my missing heart on him...wahahah..so cold..but is true...

mum..congratulation...proud of you..haha can get and make your dream come true..passing the driving lessons...haha..just now, just clarify that you are the one who want to buy car instead of me...ok... never mind...hehe...aiks...dad and mum...Oh Lord Jesus, please blessing my family with healthy body and peaceful minds...love you Lord...

Sorry, i have no attended the Lord table meeting... i do feel believe in God is really a personal things.. no need to force me go meeting and need social with sisters...cannot say as social but if i rather to be quiet, sure some of the sisters might concern me until i need explanation to release their worrying. hmmmm

I'm still shaking with my heart...struggling with the incidents happen around me...i believe myself and pursue my dream..now, i might be lesser than some people but im still enjoying that, i need to make sure myself achieve the dream or plan as planed earlier and gain more satisfaction in my life...

Family, career, friends and personal are my equal goals. No people can live without any elements from that...

i start feeling great when i get serious in forgetful matters. because of forgetful, i forget my sorrow, i will be happy always and think i'm lucky enough in my life. Although it is a problem in career but i still feel this can be replaced by recording and revise it..yes that is...

Hi baby, please have more exercise, you need to have healthy and sexy body...don't because of working and make yourself so unattractive...so awful.Do more mask and sweat and sleep good ..hmm you will be most beautiful...Don't forget the balance meal oooo...

my management is getting bad...please sit down and think and study more...baby..

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我好了
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谢谢。。。

祝福sean成功追到他
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我爱你
朋友似的爱你哦
哈哈

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失败乃成功之母

最近，发现身边的人情绪都很不稳定
包括自己
越长越大，要想的东西很多，也越来越复杂

我觉得自己很幸运
因为情绪不稳定
真的不常发生
发生了
找朋友聊聊，有没有那感觉了

我怀疑是我想得简单
我只想找快乐

不好的事情发生了
对我来说是个过渡期
顶不顺，要哭就哭
要喊就喊
要说就说
幸亏我有一班
前世修来的福气
我有一班非常要好的好朋友
因为你们
我的病
真的很快好
快到有点不敢相信
当然这样短的时间内
不是24小时都保持最佳状态
我是人
但是，真的惊人

好友家人
是我的人生assets

我很疑惑
怎样才是想得刚刚好
不要想太多
有的没的，自己找的
是的更不是的都想一堆。。真傻
想得简单，有做错决定

以为
要做决定
哇，我想很简单
要就去，不要就不要。。。
原来没那么简单的
其实也不是很复杂
问自己的心
要还是不要
看适不适合我的要求，
不明白别人的心，就问吧

我的失败
只问自己的心
没有想未来
没有想妈妈的意见
没有想本身的状况
太失败了

后面的伤心
更不用说
不用想太多
去吧
去寻找快乐

中间的挣扎期
两方面需沟通
不用当笨蛋，
强迫
自己一个人承受，一个人吞
一个人牺牲。。。
好好表达自己的感受
聆听别人的感受
作出适当的结论
要退，要前进，要放手
一起做结论

爱情没有对错
也没有丢脸不丢脸
做出为望后的日子努力，快乐
才是最重要

:)

Finally i just realise...

i want to be a coffee...
become stronger and stronger
i'm so lucky

dont simply make a decision on relationship
love not jz try and error

not for angry when we meet someone
be patient
life still full of love
be tolerate

God ald arrange the time n place for us to meet him
but it still need tolerate and forgiveness to maintain a relationship when we wanna to acc each other in future or the rest of the life

i forgive him...i forgive myself

i'm not a good pretender

sometime i understand
sometime i lost

i cried
because i can't find my understanding at that moment

i'm weak
i'm just normal