If he has a girl friend....

Basically, if he, the one whom you target at, of cause having all good criterias and able comfort you in some ways, has a girl friend, what should you do?

Last time, i would answer that is okey, just close to him, if they are no problems in their relationship, you won't have any chance to let you break it up. So the one who control and make decision is 'he' and his girl friend but not you. You just try your best to do everything you can. At least no regret at all or wont blame yourselves by doing nothing.

Actually, it is not so clear for above statement. As a good human being, we learn respect, we need respect people, just like people respect you. However, respect doesnt mean that we should give up things that may belong to us.

So, i think we should respect and more behave ourselves. At least close to him but never let ourselves be the reason of cause for them breaking up directly. We should care him, help and close with him..

Negative

This is the 3th week after training....
Time have gone so fast.....
Feel that i do nothing, learn nothing....
Feeling stupid of stating all my blaming through net....
Just for him and my heart....
Stupid and childish...

Afraid being low profile of competence....
Afraid being lost of some people who are important to my life....
Afraid being lost myself,my soul, my spirit.....

I still cant swimming safely...
I still cant master .net...
I still cant drive manual gear safely...
I still cant live in discipline...

Oh Lord Jesus...

I'm a part of his family

Dear lovely Kai Wen and Wei Yuet,
Haha...always wondering should i call you since you are so sensitive on people leaving...Haha..Finally i have made it after i was back from Pulau Pangkor...Everything seems ok...and i'm so excited to tell you that i have fun in Pangkor...haha swimming...and chatting...have special feels on my best friends as well...Finally, you said telling you the story after i go back(to KL)....i was touched...yes,there is a while that i'm a part of your family in your heart...Love sleeping with me on the same bed?....haha...

A kiss without asking from Wei yuen also excite me....haha...always desperate this kiss....

Wishing you two have a lovely and unforgetable childhood....a time that is no repeate but always bring much happiness...appreciate it....

Pangkor....my best friends

A 2 days 1 night pangkor is finished 2 days ago...haha..it is great...at least, i have learnt something....Obviously, i can express my love better than last time...This is quite a big different in feeling compare with last time. I can 'see' my weaknesses...I have alot of things or characters need to be changed and improved...I'm ready to accept this changes.

We are lucky people...No matter what happen, those whom we are caring are still alive and we still have chances to do something that we want to do or say....No regret after that...

These all are a part of live...make us become stronger and understanding....don't be corward to face it....When it is hurt, crying is allowed...no shamed at all...Don't keep hiding the feelings...