Negative

This is the 3th week after training....
Time have gone so fast.....
Feel that i do nothing, learn nothing....
Feeling stupid of stating all my blaming through net....
Just for him and my heart....
Stupid and childish...

Afraid being low profile of competence....
Afraid being lost of some people who are important to my life....
Afraid being lost myself,my soul, my spirit.....

I still cant swimming safely...
I still cant master .net...
I still cant drive manual gear safely...
I still cant live in discipline...

Oh Lord Jesus...